"Are you OK?" I asked, putting my coat around her...
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"Are you OK?" I asked, putting my coat around her shoulders"Not really," she said"I'll take you homeYou just have to get home, take a nice, long bath
and go to bed
"I am not going homeWhat's the point? Nobody's thereI don't want
to sleep all by myself in a place like that"So what are you going to do?"
"Go to some love hotel around here and sleep with your arms around
me all nightTomorrow morning we'll have breakfast
somewhere and go to lectures together
"You were planning this all along, weren't you? That's why you called
me"You should have called your boyfriend, not meThat's the only thing
that makes senseThat's what christian dior saddle boyfriends are for
"But I want to be with you
"You can't be with me," I said"First of all, I have to be back in the
dorm by midnightOtherwise, I'll break curfewThe one time I did
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that there was all hell to payAnd secondly, if I go to bed with a girl,
I'm going to want to do it with her, and the last thing I want is to lie
there struggling to restrain myselfI'm not kidding, I might end up
forcing you
"You mean you'd hit me and tie me up and rape me from behind?"
"Hey, look, I'm serious
"But I'm so lonely! I want to be with someone! I know I'm doing
terrible things to you, making demands and not giving you anything replica fendi spy in
return, saying whatever pops into my head, dragging you out of your
room and forcing you to take me everywhere, but you're the only one I
can do stuff like that to! I've never been able to have my own way
with anybody, not once in the 20 years I've been aliveMy father, my
mother, they never paid the slightest attention to me, and my
boyfriend, well, he's just not that kind of guyHe gets angry if I try to
have my own waySo we end up fightingYou're the only one I can
say these things toAnd now I'm really, really, really tired and I want
to fall asleep listening to someone tell me how much they like me and
how pretty I am and chanel tote stuffAnd when I wake up, I'll
be full of energy and I'll never make these kinds of selfish demands
again
"I hear you, believe me, but there's nothing I can do
"Oh, please! Otherwise, I'm going to sit down right here on the ground
and cry my head off all night longAnd I'll sleep with the first guy that
talks to meI called the dorm and asked for NagasawaWhen he got to the phone I asked him if he would make it look as if I
had come back for the eveningI was with a girl, I explained"It's a worthy cause, I'll be glad to help you outI'll
just turn over your name tag to the "in' sideTake all the
time you needYou can come in through my chanel white ceramic watch window in the morningI owe you one," I said and hung up"All set?" Midori asked"Pretty much," I said with a sigh"Great, let's go to a disco, it's so
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early "Wait a minute, I thought you were tired "For something like
this, I'm just fineWe went to a disco, and her energy came back
little by little as we dancedShe drank two whisky and cokes, and
stayed on the dance floor until her forehead was drenched in sweat"This is so much fun!" she exclaimed when we took a break at a table"I haven't danced like this in agesI don't know, when you move your
body, it's kind of like your spirit gets liberated
"Your spirit is always liberated, gucci bag black I'd


